I really wanna blame her,
but I just can't bring myself to do so..
It's really partly my fault that i didn't inform you that it was a school day today..
But couldn't you just ask?
Or wake me up just in case?
I would really have appreciated it you know ;

I have always been doing my part to wake you up.
But i had the stomach cramps 3am in this morning..
Therefore, I overslept.
When i woke up,
I saw you in front of the mirror combing your hair.
Taking your own sweet time,
like you have all the time in the world..

It really pissed me off.
Yet when i realised the time,
& ticked you off,
you still had the cheek to complain you were late too..
Like I would EVER buy that cock & bull story.
You were doing your hair slowly for goodness sake!
That's really the last straw.
It's all the better you're reading this.
So you would really know how I feel deep down in my heart.

Whenever you get so unreasonable,
I would try to give you the cold-shoulder treatment.
When it has gone beyond my threshold,
I would say, " I shan't talk to you anymore."
Then you would go,
"Oh, just stop being so calculative, okay?" ,
"Whatever"..
& all the worst, "Very good!".
Then when you need my assistance in anything,
you would pretend that nothing ever happened.
& you expect me to do so too!

Please!
I want to be forgiving.
But it's always you that say such hurtful & inhumane things to me before our quarrel ends.
So of course you would like to get away with it.
& you expect me to forget it just like that.
You may have said it on impulse but for so many times?
When i make mistakes, you point them out to me instantaneously.
There's nothing wrong, really ;
But when you do it & make that look in your eyes,
( The sense-of-triumph look)
It is read as, " Haha. You made a mistake you fool.."
I'm not being sensitive this time.
It's true..
& when i point out your mistakes,
You kick up such a big fuss..
When enquired why, all you gave was, "I want a sense of seniority.."
That does not mean you can insult others..
& if you really understand the term "seniority", you would treat mom & dad with such disrespect.
Especially mom.. You just don't know that you're in the wrong
& you just love to push the blame to others!
Sometimes, i really do have to urge to insult you with spiteful words during our petty quarrels.
But i always choose not to.
In order to salvage our kinship.

Are you just aware of how much i want to hate you?!
I will try my best to, rest assured.
It's time you learned.
It's time you changed.