**Not a guy I'm referring to..

I have decided a few days ago that I will let go.
I will let you find your own happiness.
It's not easy, and I have not fully let go.
But I'll still try my best.
I really still want you as my friend, but I doubt you want to.
So I have decided to let go as much as I can't bear to.

Maybe you find it hard to be my friend.
Maybe you were influenced.
Or maybe, you didn't treat me as your good friend before.
I really don't know.
But I know you won't give me and answer,
so it doesn't really matter anymore.

Perhaps it was just my own wishful thinking.
You may have just been playing along with me just to please me.
And you may not have been able to stand it anymore.
Still I want to thank you for all you have done for me.

Every little thing.
From just giving me a smile to comforting me when I'm at my lowest.
You're the bestest friend anyone can ever have.
I honestly don't know what's going on in your mind now.
But I still can feel it.
I will forever remember the happy moments we shared and forget the unhappy ones.
You have fulfilled your duty as a friend but I have failed my part.
I'm sorry.

For those whom I have offended before,
I'm sorry & I regret my actions.
If you forgive me, thank you for being so magnanimous.
If you don't forgive me, I still thank you for bearing with me all this while.

For those who I have hated,
I'm sorry for I have misjudged you.
You are actually very nice people.
I was just too quick in judging you.
& perhaps, i was partly influenced by others too.

What ever the case is, having friends are still better than having enemies.
I have decided.
From today onwards, everyone is my friend.
If you hate me, I will still regard you as my friend.
If you are okay with me, I regard you as my friend too.
If you treat me as your really good friend, I really appreciate it.
I love you & I express my deepest thank you.
I will not just reciprocate it, but a gazillion times more than you.

Thou vow not to ever hate anyone from now on.
Thou shall try thy utmost best not bad-mouth anyone from now on.
Thou shall treat everyone well with equality & not be biased to anyone.

I love you, friends! :D

Arghh.
I hate ulcers.
Join the anti-ulcer club!!! D:
I know I'm being lame XP
Lols.

Project work sucks big time.
Mr Low is.. :X
Anyway, i just want to get this thing done.
The faster it is, the better.
So when it is completed, i can finally take a breather.
I really hate projects.

I'm being really negative today.
LOLS.
All about "hate".
Okay, I'm going to be more positive now.

Thank you, PEARLINE YEO PEI YI!

For helping me in Chinese class today(:
I know sometimes we really have some miscommunication, but you're always there for me when i need you. You're the best, Wifey <3

Oh & Chermaine, thanks for keeping me company today.
Love you loads too :D <3

Yup, tomorrow is Valentine's Day already.
I managed to sell ALL my flowers today.
Yay! :D

Thanks to :
1) Shivani
2) Teng Chuen
3) Miss Woo
4) Jo Yee
5) A sec 1
6) A sec 1
7) A sec 1
8) Science Lab Technician
9) Tracy
10) Miss Wee

Thanks for supporting me! :D
Oh & the roses the band were selling smells real nice(:
YEC rocks my ankle socks! :D
LOLS.

False hope.
I just hate it.
Why on earth are you two so lazy?
Why do you just keep bumming around & doing nothing at ALL?
What makes it worse, you don't show any remorse.

懒惰虫.只会玩,不会做,真的是无药可救啊!

This is the first time i'm actually using chinese characters in my post.
LOLS! :D

Okay, time to go.
Bye! :D

Lesson of the day
Everyone deserves a second chance.
But some just don't.
No matter how many you give them, it will reap nothing.
Give chances wisely.
You reap what you sow.
If you plant very little seeds, don't expect to have an abundance of fruits.
You're have a few while others have an whole basket full of them.
No one would take pity & donate any to you.
For they worked hard for themselves and you didn't.

Today is Faeza's Birthday.

Happy birthday, Faeza!! :D <3

Tomorrow is Rena's birthday.

Happy birthday in advance, Rena!! :D <3

Things weren't going well today..
Stress!! D:
Then something happened after school.
Thank you JiaEn for comforting me & following me to resolve the complication. Love you loads & loads! :D

A blessing in disguise?
I don't know & I really can't say for sure at the moment..
I hope I'm won't be disappointed.
Oh Buddha, help me!! D:
Am i really too anxious in doing things?
Completing things & meeting deadlines?

Should i also take part in the valentine's day talent time?
I'm kinda hesitant about this though :/
A little help with this please!! D:

Lesson of the day
Finding a solution to a problem isn't easy at all.
You must go about trying & thinking of new ways before finding the perfect one.
Some people just wouldn't take the hard way.
While some will.
Whichever is the case, find the one that will work the best.

I'm at a complete loss.
I'm at a dead end.
I know that life is not a bed of roses but it's really too much.
Things are not spelt out clearly and I really detest it..
Why did things end up this way?!
I know that once you make a decision, there's no turning back.
You've have to live with it for the rest of your life.
I made a very bad one that I still regret up till this very moment.
I have no one to turn to for comfort.
I really need a listening ear..
I just wish that I could turn back time.
Make the RIGHT choice and at least not be in such agony right now.
Sigh, the ups and downs of life are the cruelest to all mankind.

To ___ :
Please speak your mind okay? I guess everything would be better
that way (: At the very least, we would know how we both feel.
** It's NOT a guy i'm referring to so don't make wild guesses.